Thursday, April 30, 2009

Dark Nights and Dawn

It's been a ridiculously long time since I have written here. Why? It seems to me that whenever I have been inspired to write, it has been easy to sum up in 140 characters or less, so I have been doing most of my writing on Twitter.

Plus, I've been going through a sort of dark night of the soul experience. I guess I find it difficult to share something like that while I am going through it. It is easier to sum it all up once one is through it and has analyzed the lessons and gifts it held.

But here I am, deciding to write, even though I am square in the middle of such an experience. Oh, what do I know? I could be near the end.

I have heard it said that it is always darkest just before dawn.

In any case, I am exhausted. I understand that is part of the process. I intend to fully surrender to the process, even though I thought I was through with it with the end of last year. Apparently, there is still "stuff" that needs clearing before I am truly ready to move forward.

I am noticing more and more synchronicities. In fact, I have been noting them all along. But my awareness of them is increasing and so it seems as if they are increasing.

In any case, I am grateful for the clearing. I expect to feel much lighter and freer when this is all over with, and perhaps ready for whatever purpose I came to fulfill. We'll see.