Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Breaking Down the Walls

Something a friend of mine said this morning triggered a breakthrough for me. He is in business for himself, and he mentioned that as long as he is focused on having fun, money flows in freely. But whenever he and his wife have an argument about money, and he finds himself focused on making money, the influx of money slows down.

And suddenly the realization dawned on me that in the act of shutting people out of my heart, I am closing the door to the influx of money and all good things. It brought tears to my eyes and it took several minutes for me to compose myself. This is the answer I have been looking for...the answer to the question, Why am I not allowing myself to succeed?

I am not allowing inflow at all. It's like a part of my heart is shut tight. The giving part is wide open. I want others to receive my love, but when it comes to inviting others in, I am highly exclusive. I exclude almost everyone. I will gladly come into your heart and give you all that I have to give, but you may not enter mine.

That's not working too well for me, because it is all God. God is love. Therefore, it is all love. By shutting out love, I am shutting out everything. I am shutting out all I need and all I desire. I am shutting out my very own self.

Ouch!

Now, to let go of this remaining armor, and embrace freedom - the freedom to love and be loved boundlessly, passionately, intimately and ecstatically, the freedom to enjoy life to the fullest and the freedom to prosper in every way.

1 comment:

  1. Caitlin9:57 AM

    Beautiful. I am sending you love! :)

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