Wednesday, July 30, 2008

You ARE the magic; You ARE the miracle

Lately, I have been using a little ritual and symbolism in my manifestation practice, and I can tell you it is turning me on!

But I knew that I was going to be away from home for a full day, and I didn't want to carry my props with me in order to continue the ritual work I am doing. Then I remembered that there is nothing that is needed outside of me to complete my work of manifestation. It is all within.

The purpose of the props and rituals and even methods is that they increase our awareness of our oneness and our alignment with Spirit. It is our awareness of this alignment, this oneness with All That Is that puts us in the place of being open and able to receive what we have already created within and empowers us to bring it forth into our life experience.

What is this empowering force? Is it something that comes to us from outside? Not at all. All the power we need to do everything we can imagine and more is already inside us. Anything that empowers us is merely awakening us to the power within.

We are the magic. We are the miracle. We are the manifestation. We are the bliss we are looking for.

So, let's stop looking and begin really seeing. It is here. It is now. We are it. And so it is.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Breaking Down the Walls

Something a friend of mine said this morning triggered a breakthrough for me. He is in business for himself, and he mentioned that as long as he is focused on having fun, money flows in freely. But whenever he and his wife have an argument about money, and he finds himself focused on making money, the influx of money slows down.

And suddenly the realization dawned on me that in the act of shutting people out of my heart, I am closing the door to the influx of money and all good things. It brought tears to my eyes and it took several minutes for me to compose myself. This is the answer I have been looking for...the answer to the question, Why am I not allowing myself to succeed?

I am not allowing inflow at all. It's like a part of my heart is shut tight. The giving part is wide open. I want others to receive my love, but when it comes to inviting others in, I am highly exclusive. I exclude almost everyone. I will gladly come into your heart and give you all that I have to give, but you may not enter mine.

That's not working too well for me, because it is all God. God is love. Therefore, it is all love. By shutting out love, I am shutting out everything. I am shutting out all I need and all I desire. I am shutting out my very own self.


Now, to let go of this remaining armor, and embrace freedom - the freedom to love and be loved boundlessly, passionately, intimately and ecstatically, the freedom to enjoy life to the fullest and the freedom to prosper in every way.

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

A Reason, a Season or a Lifetime

Once in a while, an e-mail forward comes along that is really worth reading. This is one of those.

Nature does nothing uselessly. The mysteries of nature should not be questioned, they should be experienced.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed..

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you entered my life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Giving Up

I remember trying so hard to be what I thought would make me lovable to others. It is a kind of death, because if you are not being yourself, who are you being? You are not being at all. You are existing.

You can't earn love. You can only give it and receive it. It is either a gift or it is not love at all. If you do try to earn it, nothing you do will ever be enough. And how can anyone love a non-person, anyway?

Sometimes, giving up is the most positive thing you can do. Trying to change what is can be like beating a dead horse. It's not going anywhere. Give it up! This is coming from someone who is bound and determined to see a thing through once I start. Surrender does not come easily to me. I descended from stubborn, determined and strong women and if it's important enough for me to invest my time and attention, I want it to work, damn it! But what if what you are trying to make work is not even for your highest good? Hello! It's a prison, a dungeon even, but I am still going to make it work. Stubbornness can easily become foolishness. Guilty!

And so giving up, at least in the sense of surrender, is not failure. It is making space for real success.

Giving up on a relationship that is not serving your highest good is making space for a relationship that will.

I like the way it is written in Trisha Yearwood's song, Let the Wind Chase You:

Like a wildwood flower
Doesn’t have to reach for the sun
And when it needs a drop of water
It doesn’t have to ask the rain to come

I don’t wanna work for your love
I don’t wanna try to be
Something that you’re looking for
You’re never gonna find in me

So let the wind chase you
I can’t do it anymore
Let the road run after you
Like I always did before
Let the stars catch your eye
‘Cause I’ve tried and tried and tried
And I won’t do
So let the wind chase you

No one says a diamond isn’t precious
Just because it hasn’t yet been found
And no one blames the moon for not shining
Just because it’s hidden by a cloud

I don’t wanna blame myself
Thinking that I’m not enough
And wonder what’s wrong with me
Because I couldn’t win your love

So let the wind chase you
I can’t do it anymore
Let the road run after you
Like I always did before
Let the stars catch your eye
‘Cause I’ve tried and tried and tried
And I won’t do
So let the wind chase you

I don’t wanna work for your love
I don’t wanna try to be
Something that you’re looking for
You’re never gonna find in me

So let the wind chase you
I can’t do it anymore
Let the road run after you
Like I always did before
Let the stars catch your eye
‘Cause I’ve tried and tried and tried
And I won’t do
So let the wind chase you, mmhmm
Let the wind (let the wind)
Chase you

I Get It

I had a total Freudian slip when I was writing out this post the first time.

I intended to write, "Attachment is suffering. It is not what other people do or don't do that causes us to suffer. It is wanting circumstances to be different from what they are." But, what I actually wrote was, "It is wanting circumstances to be different from what we are."

Interesting, because I think that is it in a nutshell. We attract what we are, or at least what we think we are. We think we want a loving relationship, but if we think we are unworthy, we attract someone who reflects our thoughts by treating us as if we are unworthy. Then, we suffer in that relationship, because we resist seeing what is being reflected back to us. We want circumstances to be different than what we are.

If someone or some relationship is reflecting back to us our sense of unworthiness, does unworthiness become the truth about us? Absolutely not! It is merely a reflection of the illusion that we are holding in our thoughts. If we think that we are unworthy, we feel unworthy, and we create the illusion of unworthiness...which must then be reflected back to us by divine law. Just as a mirror can only reflect the image projected into it, the mirror of our circumstances can only reflect what we project into it from our internal pictures.

This seems to be an annoyance, but it is actually a blessing. We become aware of what internal pictures we are holding by what we are reflecting in our life experience. This provides the perfect opportunity for changing our internal pictures from what we don't want to experience to what we do want.

At least, that's the way I see it. But what do I know?

Resisting or Allowing? A Simple Choice for Life

By Patrice Robson

"The world offers itself to me in a thousand ways, and I ache with an awareness of how infrequently I am able to receive more than a small fraction of what is offered, of how often I reject what is because I feel it is not good enough." --Oriah Mountain Dreamer

Lately, I'm becoming more and more conscious of two completely different ways of being: resisting and allowing.

By really paying attention to myself, I can sense when I'm in resistance. For me, resistance brings rigidity - my body feels hard, like I'm wearing psychic armor. And I also feel a tightening, a hardness to my mind, like I'm marshalling my mental defences for battle.

Not surprisingly, resistance feels negative. Most times, when I'm resentful, I don't even know what I'm resenting. Sometimes it's rooted in fear. It has a "me against them" kind of attitude.

What has been surprising is that I'm often in resistance when there hasn't been any obvious cause for that kind of reaction. I've discovered that being in resistance is a habit. It's the way I've learned to live - to always be protecting myself against life, even though living this way steals my energy and my joy.

Fortunately, I've discovered the second word: allowing. What is allowing? It's not controlling. It's not forcing things to be my way or even just wishing things were my way. It's letting life be just as it is.

When I'm allowing, I experience a softness in my being. The armour is gone; I feel safe and relaxed. This is where peace, contentment and well-being arise. I'm not at war with life and there's space to enjoy whatever's going on. It feels so good!

I can only get to allowing when I let go of judgment. I need to release my opinions that "things would be better if..." Backing up a bit, I can only get to allowing when I become aware that I'm resisting.

For me, sensing the contrast between resistance and allowing has been an experience of awakening. And it's so simple! All I have to do is pay attention! Am I feeling armoured for battle, angry at the world, even in a very subtle way? Or am I feeling open, soft, comfortable, at ease? If I'm in resistance, I bring my attention to my breathing for a few minutes and this helps ease the tension.

Just becoming aware of the resistance often releases it. And as I practice this awareness, over and over and over again, my experience of life is lightening up. I smile more often and worry much less. It's all I've ever wanted!

Sunday, July 06, 2008

Damn Mirror!

So, I'm all complaining about men and the mixed messages they send out, and it hits me. It's that damn mirror! It's me. I'm the one sending out mixed messages.

I have no problem for instance, being playful and flirtatious with a man when I know it's not going to go beyond friendship. But when it comes to a man I could lose my heart to, I get all standoffish and serious. How can I expect a man to make sense of that? It doesn't even make sense to me.

Sometimes, awareness is a pain in the ass. We're not always thrilled with what we find lurking in the shadows when we turn on the light.

But, what the hell? I've come this far. Might as well go the distance.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

The REAL Secret (Just Kidding)

I am in the process of reading James Ray's book, Harmonic Wealth, and one of the things he stated early in the book is that a breakthrough is preceded by a breakdown.

That's exactly what I have found to be true in my life. In fact, my life seemed to sort of fall to pieces a little more than a year ago, and this past year has been a process of sorting through the debris and cleaning and clearing emotionally and spiritually.

I feel that reiki has been very instrumental in both the clearing process and in getting me to a place where I am ready to rebuild. That is where I am now, and it is a truly exciting place to be. I feel like I have been reborn and a whole world of possibilities has opened up for me.

I only thought I knew about being open to possibilities before. I am just a baby in this practice. But that bears out that if you do what you can with what you have, if you act "as if" you already have what you desire, the Universe will meet you way more than halfway.